been a while since i last blogged. was mainly because as the time to ct's shortens, the workload/stress/pressure and everything else starts to build up tremendously. well anyway lets start with today.

the beatboxer dude for assembly is dam cool dats all i must say. being able to produce sounds yet sing at the same time. kudos to him =) hahaha
so after assembly rushed off to the airport with tue royce and bong. well i dunno la but it was actually more for show that most of us went to pick them up i suppose hahaha. anyway today was such a bad day or mayb its juz their schedule. went there, sorted out some presents, welcomed them, cut cake, chat a bit then off to their hostel they went. girls staying at ny hostel (which looks dam nice!) and guys staying at mcnair lodge (which reminds me of obs --> its like 5 pple in one room ><) hahah~ didnt manage to talk much to any of them except for quang but well was sittin nxt to him in the bus but den i dun really like bus rides especially when im tired. so got sort of a headache on the way dere but didnt get too bad haha~ ah well.. i felt was quite a waste of time to a small extent la heh.. not that i would have spent my time better anywayz.

so yea at least got to see all of them again, ok la just the 5 of them hahah~ good enough i suppose.

today, 4e moved into the new classroom block and kudos to us, the projector screen broke. e thing is dam lousy la! like geoffrey slam one time den spoil. as in not dat hes completely rite to slam e thing but you noe ah, its like the SCREW thingy broke. e METAL broke la. dats juz useless rite. even c3-22 can sustain much longer than this new block.. heh~ oh den e cupboard apparently got some spoilt stuff oso thx to junyi hahaha~ dunno la. and my class aircon sucks! its dam hot la wth.. den e other classes are like cold =( not fair!

so bleugh. as said earlier, the stress is really building up now. im totally on the verge on breaking down somehow due to a few clashing reasons. i juz dunno la! its like.. ri is prolly the best school because of the environment. if u get urself into the right environment, man u can really spur urself on to aim for the top and reach for the sky. its like i look around me, i see people really pulling up their socks all de way up to like.. their heads and mugging their butts off. whereas for me, coming back from hue, i only managed to finally conclude everything related to the hue trip like this wk. total pwned by the backlog of work. then now RS ticket design, gg.. im not even VERY good at designing la but i guess i wudnt mind doing it.. den english portfolio/bookreview/oral defence. all due nxt wk or sth~ .. burst la! so this wkend is gonna be hell..

and to think i told myself after coming back from hue to 'enjoy life, go wif e flow and dun rush myself too much' guess deres nothing much i can do to prevent this.. ct's coming up in a week. chinese o''s and theory exam in 3 weeks. vietfrens came over so probably gonna hve to bring them out soon.. hm~ not that im complainig but bleugh if i become like dam easily irritated over the nxt few wks, ya u noe why now.

talk about gettin irritated. i juz realized how sometimes, i get bullied too much sometimes. its like sometimes you trash talk wif pple so u start putting each other down for fun like:
"ah u louz la!"
"noob!"
etc etc. den sometimes pple do dat to me. but for me i normally dun do much stuff back ie retaliate coz i dun really care sometiems. so like say u scold me or sth, swear or wateva ya i dun care la~ basicalyl dats wat normally happens.. but den like now, some pple 'de cun jin chi', think that im like totally 'useless', and dun really care much wat im thinkin coz i tend to give in so easily so often.. then now, when i try to 'express' my angst, pple think deres sth wrong wif me.. like i hate that person and stuff.. well, sometimes i wonder to myself, like do i owe everyone a living juz cause i wud rather others be 'happier' and myself take all e crap? mayb its time to start gettin hated by e whole world and juz be an asshole but guess dats not gonna happen anytime soon though.

<-- wats written above can be interpreted in anyway anyone wants to view this. so if u think im referring to whoevers reading this, who noes. im juz expressing my observations and my displeasure hahah. but dats wat blogs are for eh? vent ur frustrations etc... so~ yeap.

talking about all this crap. did i say how tang is such a !@#$er sometimes for reasons i fail to comprehend. like yes i noe im not good at writing essays and i average like 60% for them. but u dun have to fkn suan me in front of e whole class. ESPECIALLY when dere are pple who do worse than me?!
scenario: most recent essay given back, can u judge de quality of a persons life by the enemies he make?
pt1: well she says our definition of quality of a person life is too shallow and shud not juz be judged by happiness wateva. well hello?! its OUR essay, as long as its reasonalbe i dun tink why u shud not agree wif us?
pt2: so when did english-essay-writing-101 say we have to include global examples? and i dun see whytf she shud be suanning me saying 'jevon cant write good essays!' in front of e whole class juz cause i dun have any 'ooh so great global examples' to support wateva statements i have. like wateva la~ yes i noe mayb dats a weak point in dat i dun strongly support my arguments sometimes but plz, u dun have to tear through a whole persons ego juz like dat.
pt3: 18/30. compare dat mark wif pple around me. i see NO freaking reason at all why i shud be the one to get suan. i see pple who score lower than me. EVEN FAILING. and this is what shit i get? go aim some other pple plz.

so yes.. this wk has been pretty crappy la as of late, and i haven really been able to get a good nights sleep ever. doubt ill be gettin one soon wif all e shit stacking up. its juz super frustrating and i guess this blog has allowed me to vent some frustrations. but anonimity has to stand at such b4 i start gettin sued by other pple for defamation or stuff hahahah~

p.s sry for crude language at times but im juz dam irritated. (and irritated is juz a nicer word for pissed)
p.s2 i hope dat my life will get better soon.. 1-2 more weeks~ and its donw to 2 subjects. dats all im looking for.